Almost Down for the Count

Yesterday I went to see "American Carol."  It was good and it was funny but of course, no liberal would ever go to see it, which makes it an inside joke for Republicans.  The fact that it was even MADE really shocked me, because when it comes down to playing dirty in the media, Republicans put on their gloves and stand there while the liberals and the MSM beat the crap out of us.  So the point of the movie only served to preach to the choir. And for me, all it did was remind me of how tired I am of liberals beating up on everything American and everything Republican.

It's not that we can't hold our own, we can and we do.  But the difference is, we don't antagonize, we don't try to spray DNC convention go-ers with bleach. We don't cause destruction. We don't need to be arrested.  We don't accost people because of the bumper sticker on their cars. (That happened to me twice.)  I should have to worry about exercising my right to free speech by having a bumper sticker on the car that says "McCain-Palin" for fear of getting harassed? Obama supporters where I live have their yard signs prominently displayed in the center of their lawns, defiantly daring anyone to say a bad word against him.  McCain supporters don't have yard signs at all (I know there are plenty of Republicans among the 150 houses in my development) because they are afraid to be baited into an argument or get booed.  Yes, that's right.  We remain silent, scared, afraid to piss someone off.

So watching "American Carol" did not make me feel all warm and fuzzy that there are others who feel the same way as I do about this country. It made me feel alone and outnumbered.  It made me feel like there are so many people in this country that have been taught to hate it, in particular since the war started, that I often feel put on the defensive when someone finds out I am Republican, when I should feel proud and be able to hold my head up high.

But it's getting harder and harder to hold up my head lately.  It's been 8 years and my head and shoulders feel like they are carry the weight of the world, if not my party, on top of them. It started with the 2000 elections.  Everyone assumed Gore would win, and frankly, after coming off of an 8 year term of economic prosperity and relative international peace as VP, he should have been able to win by a landslide.  But he didn't.  So therefore, Bush "stole" the election.  And Democrats have never, ever forgotten that.  And if you think that all of the hatred directed to Bush and Cheney is caused by anything other than that still-festering wound, then you think too highly of the Democrats. It's the grudge that will never go away. Going to war was just pouring salt into the wound and 8 years later, it remains open, raw and refuses to be healed.

So now with a decent chance to get their messiah into office, by any means necessary (voter fraud, refusal to present a legitimate birth certificate, denying questionable alliances) the Democrats have started pooping in their pants at the thought of Sarah Palin running the country. (Of course, everyone has John McCain dead and buried although he is healthy, while Biden has had 2 aneurysms, but who needs details?) Why are they worried? She's a pro-life, feminine, attractive, strong-willed woman.  She can shoot a gun, she can kill her own dinner, she cares for her family, she runs a state... face it, she's Super Woman,    

whereas Hillary is more like a man in pumps. (Although I would take Hillary over Obama any day, but that's another story.)  So now she is under attack... all the time!  She's a dummy, she's just a MILF, she thinks living in Alaska gives her foreign policy experience, she can't raise a family AND hold office-and those are the NICE things that are being said about her. Here's a sample of the nasty things (via Michelle Malkin) and George Moneo has more at Babalublog.com.

       

So after 8 years of bashing, attacking, harassing, antagonizing, bullying, movie-making, protesting and hate-mongering, I'm really tired.  I hate feeling like I'm the underdog.  I hate the liberals trying to make Republicans out to be monsters just because the MSM declared open season on us in 2000. I hate that people don't know the facts when they go on attack.  It's enough now to often close my mouth at work when people bash Governor Palin because I fear that one day I will get angry enough and become one of THEM:  the crazies, the lunatics, the uninformed, the gut-reacting looney tunes.  I can be that person, I really can, it's not hard to do.  But not only do I have self-control, I also know that it will get me precisely NOWHERE. 

In the meantime, I just don't know if I can take 4 more years of this.  It's enough to make me want Obama to win, just to make the screaming stop.  But then there are people who tell me to stop being a wimp and that now is not the time to give up.  This is when it counts.  I'd like to listen, really, I would, but I feel like Rocky when he fought Clubber Lang (Mr. T.) in Rocky 3 and he just put his hands in front of his face and let Clubber give him beating after beating until, swollen and bruised, he just gave up.  I'm sorry Mick, I may just be down for the count.